Struggles

You know you need to buy new jeans when you discover that every pair you own has a hole in the knee. (and for some reason, it's always the right knee that seems to have the hole. ???)

Hi. I have been so quiet lately, and I wonder if you have all given up on me. I wouldn't blame you if you did. The studio has been taking up so much of my time and energy, and what I have left is for the husband. Oh, and the dog finds a way to wedge himself in there, too. Of course!

How is the painting going, you ask? Well, sometimes, you have a day where you spend two hours painting a background in, only to decide that you don't like the color of the background. So you do it all over again. And some days, you wipe half of the painting off and start over. I hope this means I am overdue for a magical day when everything I touch turns to gold.

At least some new paintings are being finished. Here's one, which I will be showing at JTAG in February:

"Pedicure." Collage, acrylic and oil on board, 12 x 9 inches. ©Karine Swenson2012

Solitude

"Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better." ~Henry Rollins

"Music to My Ears III." Collage, acrylic and oil on board, 8 x 10 inches. ©2012 Karine Swenson

It has been argued that the human condition is one of loneliness. Others may think that loneliness is unique only to them. Still others have told me that they prefer solitude to being with other people, for various reasons. Being alone is not always lonely. I am alone quite often. There are no children to distract me. My husband is gone frequently. (more often now than at other times, but it is the nature of his work that he is away often.) I have a dog, and I love my dog, but a dog is no replacement for the companionship of other humans.

Of course, in our modern era, we have devices to make us feel more "connected." Telephones, internet, and the social connection of all social connections - FACEBOOK. And yet, despite these modern wonders, I am often left feeling lonelier after having used these devices and having visited Facebook than I was beforehand. As far as I am concerned, there is nothing that will replace a face-to-face visit with a friend or loved one. Perhaps our modern devices only prevent us from seeing each other in person more. What do you think?

The reality of an artist's life is one of solitude. Hours are spent alone, in the studio. Hours are also spent alone, reflecting on the work. Good work only comes from that solitude. I don't find the solitude of the studio to be lonely. On the contrary, when I am in the studio working, I am the most at peace. I am the most myself during those times. The struggles and triumphs I experience in the studio are mine and mine alone. Yet, I do have hope that those moments of trial and joy are somehow transferred into my paintings and then on to others. I do hope for that. I also have hopes that somehow the art is another way to be connected. A way to jump start a conversation, or a way to understand another person. I wonder, do you find art to be another door or window into another person's life or outlook on life? Do you think art can be used to connect people?

I'd love to hear your thoughts.